CAPTAIN'S BLOG
Such was the warning of my therapist. Emotional Space. As an intellectual, emotional space is something I often rejected. I saw emotion as, not weakness, but dangerous. No doubt it was a part of my own attempts at limiting the emotions I felt. I have always felt many, and strongly. They have not always been helpful, or healthy. I have not had healthy ways to express them, either - I grew up in a rather typical household with a household with an only boy - a distant father, an emotional mother. I see the streaks of my fathers influence on my personality. They almost universally work against what matters most to me - feeling connected to those around me, unidirectionally. Like old printer standards, I am a black hole for emotion - it goes in, but often, never comes out. People look at me with confusion, as PC LOAD LETTER broadcasts across my face in pixelated, digital letters. Or maybe I just have an indicator light: ERROR. I/O ERROR: BUFFER OVERFLOW |
AuthorChristina Hitchens is a trans female writer living in BC, Canada. She loves computers, animals, and a good argument. Archives
March 2022
Categories
All
|